I was brought up always to help others (good idea!)-- especially at great personal cost (not so good idea!), My goal is to help myself and maybe help others by writing. My serenity, my sanity, my stability will be my gift to y'all.
And perhaps my readers will glean some small diversion from my story
Writing for myself "literally" is the hardest and most rewarding thing I have ever done. In order to do it, I have to be alone with one of the scariest people I know.
Does that make sense to you? If it does, you may well enjoy my work.
Hell is failure to commit to oneself.